Go through
Toss out all your old clothes
Find that pill
Stashed in those pockets
Yes
Found it
Consume
Imbibe
Distress yourself until you are haggard
I’m not royal queen
Victoria
In your closet
That pill
And the happy
Make way for the happy
The lights
Hand-holding
Some semblance of humanity
All to brief
But in this moment
We love each other mad
I can’t word it out
But you can
You’re high
And light the match
For the smoke
Light the bird on fire
Dump the ashes into the ocean
And, for once, float
Freely
Undiscoverable gratitude
Freedom
A plentitude of shwag
Just the tip
No more
Gone
Sudden crash
The game is over
And
Dead
But alive
But dead
So dead
Like drowning in shallow water
No depth
Not even the possibility of emotion
Just move
Get the coffee
Go through the motions
Build back your muscle memory
Remember
And forget
And go through the motions
And build back your muscle memory
Hear yourself sigh
Hear yourself breathe at night
Remember
Go through the motions
Build up that muscle memory
Float
Build a boat
Set to sea
And explore
Explore explore explore
Rampant art
The sharks eat the fish eat the algae
Bloom, you terd, go on vacation
Rage at the dying of the night
Play a rap song
Sing
And just jump
The cliff
Is bottomless
Legal Disclaimer: This poem in no way advocates for suicide or drug use.